During a vacation in Spain back
in 1994 I was inspired to pray to the Lord
due to the consistent pressure
of personal trouble and a feeling of utter
emptiness in my heart. I was a
person who never had many friends and I
never felt accepted in social gatherings
at school or other places. Therefore I
was acquainted with the dreary
impression of loneliness and rejection.
At that time I wasn't saved nor
had any knowledge of the Scriptures. I
realized that I had no peace in
my heart, so while I was alone in the hotel
room in Spain I began to pray to
God. In this prayer I poured out my heart to
Him and expressed my desire to
learn about the Christian life and what I must
do to be a Christian. I must emphasize
again that' back then I had no
under-standing of the Bible and
the work of Jesus.
Now I began to seek the Lord with
all of my heart and I am convinced that
God helped me during this time.
A number of some influential coincidences
occurred after returning home from
Spain. I became familiar with Worldwide
Christian Radio - an international
radio station from Nashville, Tennessee -
and I started listening to their
programs regularly. Just by accident I met a
group of young Christians in a
shopping mall in the city of Cologne. They
explained to me some of the plan
of salvation and encouraged me to read the
Bible. More and more I desired
to study God's Word, but it was still very
difficult for me to really understand
what the Bible had to say. I also began to
pray regularly. But I was never
sure whether I was saved or not. I was full of
doubts. I still felt convicted
as a sinner. I had so many questions about
Christian faith, but there was
nobody who could answer me. Moreover, I
discovered that a large number
of radio preachers on Worldwide Christian
Radio preached contradicting and
vague doctrines concerning salvation,
which added to my doubts.
I asked myself what I must do to
have a personal relationship with the Lord
Jesus? How do I know, for sure
that I am saved? These questions continued
to puzzle my mind. I have to emphasize
that I didn't know any other
Christians in Germany who could
help me in this struggle. I live in a part of
Germany that is mainly Catholic.
Germany is characterized by spiritual
apostasy. Most people have no respect
for the Bible and they don't care
about what Jesus has done. So if
I had asked other people to help me
understand about the plan of salvation
and the wonderful work of Jesus, they
sure would have laughed me to scorn.
Even Germany's government
supported Protestant churches (Lutheran)
have no evangelical statement of
faith and they no longer support
a Biblical world view.
But during this time of doubting
there was another coincidence God brought
into my life. One day I turned
on the TV and to my surprise there was a news
report by a very liberal news magazine
about Baptist churches in Tennessee.
While the news report slanderously
accused Baptists as being "anachronistic",
"bigoted" and "prude", I discovered
that those Baptist people honestly and
actively obeyed the Word of God.
Since I was so positively impressed by the
simple and pure faith of those
Baptist people - being so viciously vilified by
our German news journalists - I
tried to listen to Baptist radio programs on
Worldwide Christian Radio. The
one program that touched me the most was
Bro. Eugene Brown's "Words of Hope"-program.
Through his preaching I
realized that it takes simple,
childlike faith in Jesus Christ to be saved and that
we do NOT earn our salvation by
good works. I also realized that
repentance and faith were essential
to receive God's gift of salvation by grace.
Brother Brown usually ends his
radio message with an invitation to say a
word of prayer with him. That was
important for me because by our prayers
we express our dependence upon
God. Humble prayer is worth so much
more than the pride of theological
knowledge. It was during one of those
prayers that I felt a change. John
3:16 was the verse of Scripture that was
continually on my mind. "For God
so loved the world, that he gave his
only begotten Son, that whosoever
believeth in him should not perish,
but have everlasting life." It
was such a wonderful joy when I realized that
this promise was for ME. I have
this wonderful promise because Christ went
to Calvary to pay with His own
blood for me. I can not tell how it really
happened, but I realized that my
doubts and the feeling of being convicted of
sin were gone. Suddenly I felt
the burning desire to tell others about Jesus, the
forgiveness of sin and His sacrifice
on the cross. I never had this feeling
before. Like never before in my
life I had a hunger for God's Word. At this
time I began to study the Scriptures
daily (Acts 17:11). Many of my habits
and opinions changed in a short
time (Ephesians 4:22, 23, Romans12:2). All this
happened during the spring of 1995.
Finally, I want to say that since
my New Birth through God's wonderful
grace, Jesus has been a friend
to me "that sticketh closer than a brother"
(Proverbs 18:24). We are always
reminded that Jesus loves us. How do we
know? 'He that believeth on the
Son of God hath the witness in
himself... (1. John 5:10)," "The
Spirit itself beareth witness with our
spirit, that we are the children
of God."
In my life as a Christian I received
encouragement and strength by many other
dedicated Christians. But to make
my testimony complete I have to mention
that during my walk with God I
received continual edification through the
correspondence with Sister Estelene
Sloan of Mount Tabor Old-Fashioned
Missionary Baptist Church. She
encouraged me to come to America and get
baptized. I am greatly thankful
to the Lord that we met each other in person
for the first time at McFerrin
Missionary Baptist Church on March 29 1998
on the day of my baptism.
Ingo Breuer
April 18, 1998