My Personal Salvation Testimony
"Therefore, if any man be in Christ, he
is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things
are become new."
II Corinthians 5:17
My Life Without Christ
I was born in a Christian family. My dad
was working in a big company, but in the late 70's, he surrendered
to the ministry and became a full
time pastor of a Baptist church. My mother was
a teacher, but on November 1983, she passed away to be with the Lord.
I have one sister, and
3 brothers, and I am the third child from the
eldest. My brothers and sister had many physical strengths and were
talented, but I felt I had lots of
weaknesses. So I felt inferior and developed
an attitude of being shy and introvert. Yet, despite my weaknesses,
I was ambitious. Deep within
me I had the hope that someday I would be different
and would become a successful person. My weaknesses led me to seek
comfort in God's
word, and so I became a Bible reader. I
was religious and active in attending Sunday School, Worship services,
Training Union, and choir, and
having a dad who is a pastor, I easily
learned how to share some Bible doctrines, especially about idolatry,
to my classmates and friends. Yes, I
was religious, but being religious did not bring
me peace and happiness. I remember, in 1974 during a revival crusade
in the church, I came
forward to accept the Lord, but I think it was
a matter of emotional experience and was lacking in conviction and
understanding of God's
salvation. I had many unfulfilled desires,
and I became dissatisfied and frustrated. I got bored and tired of
my way of life, so when I came to
college, I strove hard to change my ways
to overcome my weaknesses. I got better grades and was excelling
only in the beginning, but my heart
was still filled with discontentment and
frustrations. Due to a lack of direction, I began practicing sins
that later enslaved me. My life was without
meaning and purpose, and I hated myself for what
I was. I wished I were somebody else. There were even times that
I wished I could end my
life.
How I Came To Know Christ Personally
I remember, it was October 1979 when I
got hold of a booklet about how to have a personal relationship with
God. While reading, I saw myself
in the illustration as the natural man
whose life is filled with discord and frustrations. I also realized
that if I fully surrender my life to the Lord, he
will change my life and give me love, joy, and
peace. Then there were nights that I couldn't sleep, and tears kept
flowing from my eyes. There
were struggles in my heart until I cried to the
Lord, "Lord Jesus, take control of my life!". Since then, I found
peace and joy in my heart. Then,
one Sunday Afternoon, the phone rang and
I was the one who answered it. One of the staff of a certain Christian
campus ministry was looking
for my sister so she can request her to draw
a poster for their activity. Because my sister was not around, I was
requested to draw for them and
they discovered that I have a talent that
is useful for the Lord. I felt their concern and desire that I would be
developed and become useful. Since
then, I availed myself of their leadership
and discipleship training and became actively involved in evangelism
and discipleship.
My life Since I Received Christ
Lots of changes happened in my life since
I accepted the Lord Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Once I was a very
shy person, but God made me
courageous and bold to share the Gospel
to others. Before, my life had no purpose and direction, but God
gave me a new purpose for living and
made me useful in His Kingdom. I realized
that God allowed me to have many weaknesses, in order that I would
rely upon Him and trust Him to
develop my weaknesses into spiritual strengths
for the use of His glory. Throughout my college days since I accepted
the Lord, I had been active
in evangelism and discipleship. When I
became a Missionary Baptist, I found out that the best place to serve
God is in His Scriptural church. I
learned also that evangelism and discipleship
should be done in the context of a Scriptural church's ministry.
The Lord increased my talents and
abilities and gave me many opportunities to serve
Him in the right church. For many times, I got involved in the leadership
of Missionary Baptist
Youth Fellowships and Missionary Baptist campus
ministries. Now the Lord is still using me in the great task of winning
people, baptizing
believers, doing mission and planting churches
being a missionary of a Missionary Baptist church. Indeed, the statement
is true, "God uses
ordinary people to accomplish great and
extra ordinary tasks".
-----Edwin Jardinel
www.geocities.com/gieba
Northern Phillippines
"God does not choose men and women because
of what they are,
but because of what they will become"